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Wonder.

Wednesday, July 31, 20131:00 AM

..and i wonder if you ever cared about how i feel.

- 'coz it hurts too much. -

Another Day

Tuesday, July 30, 201310:07 PM

Lie to me, say that you need me
That's what i wanna hear
That is what, what makes me happy
Hoping you'll be near
All this time, how could I know
Within these walls, I can feel you
Another day goes by, will never know just wonder why
You made me feel good, made me smile
I see it now, and I, can say it's gone
That would be a lie
Cannot control this, this thing called love
You must think, how can this be
You don't really know me
I can't tell, this ain't the time
You'll never be mine
What can I say, something 'bout my life
I just lost again
Another day goes by, will never know just wonder why
You made me feel good, made me smile
I see it now, and I, can say it's gone
That would be a lie
Cannot control this, this thing called love
Always have to move on,
To leave it all behind
Go along with time
Another day goes by, will never know just wonder why
You made me feel good, made me smile
I see it now, and I, can say it's gone
That would be a lie
Cannot control this, this thing called love

-Love, in all its aspects, opens the self fully to vulnerability.-

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Note to self.

12:26 AM

In my many years of being single,
I thought about my past relationships.
How it broke me into pieces,
How it made me fell so hard,
And of course, i learned to love.

When i was young,
I fooled around, alot.
When i grew older,
I learned about Karma.
When it strikes,
It hit me hard.. Real hard.

And then i started to learn how to fall in love with one,
And gave my all to one.
Then i learned too,
After a few break-ups,
That life is not always about happy endings.

Almost giving up on love,
I made new friends online.
Don't matter the distance.
As long as the friendship was pure and true.

Nisma's her name.
A beautiful name with a beautiful heart.
She gave me the strength i needed,
When i was on the verge of breaking down.
When i fell hard on the ground,
She pushed me back up,
And showered me with her never-ending love and care,
One could possibly give.
I call her my guardian angel.
She was there when i needed her.
Always taught me the good things in life.
And i thank ALLAH,
For this special sister of mine.
One i can never replace.
May ALLAH bless you,
Bless our friendship,
Bless us all.

And today,
At approximately 0930hrs,
I promised myself,
To never look back and wait.
Though the heart still refuses to ignore,
And pray that one day he'll realise his loss,
I hope he find peace in life.
And the one he's longed for the most.
I pray for the best, babe.
Though i know this wasn't meant to be.
You'll remain in my heart, and mind forever.

Though i lost one love,
I gained new friendship.
ALLAH has always something new to replace us with,
When he took something away.

- Stop chasing for love. Let it come running to you. -

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Why?

12:06 AM

I don't know why,

I can't seem to get you off my mind.

Kept repeating the words you said in my head,

But i don't think hating is working.

I always believe that you'll come around soon.

But soon seems to be taking a long time.

My heart still bleeds from the stabbing words you said.

I don't know why,

I don't understand why.

Am i still waiting?

For another heartache?

And i just hope,

And i just pray.

Put myself together and things will all be okay.

Why have you come?

Why now?

When you got me,

Why the betrayal?

Is it fun playing with hearts?

Is it fun when karma strikes?

Still.. I don't know what am i waiting for.

-Heart still aches though the love remains.-

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