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hectic weekend.

Monday, June 29, 200912:09 PM

Hey guys.
Weekends are kinda interesting.
Mum brought me out on Saturday. She knows i'm really sad ever since my King of Pop is gone.
So, we went to Downtown East to watch Transformers: Revenge of the fallen. It's the 2nd time i watch this. First was with Hasni. Also, i was upset at that point of time. And prolly this movie is the only movie that can cure me for a while. heh.
After that, we went to Tampines One. Went for window shopping. I'm in love with 2 dresses at Dorothy Perkins. Told my friend to help me reserve it till dad give me some cash which i assume, when the day GST offset will come. Mum grabbed some fake eyelashes at SaSa and few more stuffs then went home.
Went for Wedding Karaoke the next day. I wanted to know the updates on MJ's funeral, so i asked Hafiz, my duet partner, to help me buy a NewPaper. And there, another story about MJ. But not the funeral though. Sigh. I really hope he'll be buried in Islamic way since he is now a muslim.
So, my brother was there for a while to get a VCD for a competition. Went off, and came back with a broad smile. His wife told me that he won the first place. I'm not sure where exactly, and what. But he've got some cash with him. Hahs! He told me to ask mum if she wants to follow them to AMK Hub later at night, to look for Adek's bicycle. Mum agreed. So, i went back home first, get changed then met them at AMK Central. There wasn't enough time to look for the bike since we went for dinner first. I was super hungry. Went to Pizza Hut, had our food fiesta there. Then we talked and talked until, the topic about MJ was brought up. I know it won't bring any good to me. And then... Mama told my brother, "Your sister was crying at home all day", then my brother replied, "Of course la! He's her favourite ever since she was very small. We even argued about MJ's video tape and all. But she never give in 'coz he was her only favourite that time.", then my eyes went watery but i hold back the tears. Mama was staring at me the whole time my brother remind us about MJ's time back then. Then she said, "She was 2 or 3 years old when she started watching MJ. I can never forget the time she kept repeating his videos every single day." And i thought i was 5. hah! Only my family knows how precious MJ is in my life. He was an inspiration and will always be.

I read Berita Minggu that morning, read about Lisa Marie Presley revealing what MJ was ever afraid of. Again, it brought me tears. He did die like Elvis, at a young age. The difference was how they both died. I never really know Elvis as he was gone before i was even born. Unlike MJ, i saw him on TV and started liking him ever since i know how to walk.
Uhh.. I've never cried for someone's death like how i cried for MJ. This is the first time, i cried for someone's death. He, who first brought a smile on my face, captured me with his songs and moves, and now, he's the first to bring me tears at the news of a death.
I've been trying to keep myself busy lately.
Knowing that MJ is gone, it affects my life bit by bit. I ate alot, seriously. I had too many ice cream these days. Just to please myself.
I can still feel the existance of MJ around me as i watched his videos on YouTube. I love him so damn much that i can go crazy knowing that he's gone now.

p/s: Congrats, bro. You are good. I'll be uploading your video in Facebook soon, depending on how many people wants to see how good you are. hahs.

-How he've changed my life back then and now.-

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R,I.P Michael Jackson

Friday, June 26, 20095:56 PM

I Just Can't Stop Loving You

R.I.P Michael Jackson.
(1958 - 2009)

Heard the news. It's everywhere now. And to be frank, i can't accept the fact that he's gone.
I was happy when i heard he's converting to Islam and the next thing i knew, he's gone to where he first came from. I was, really devastated.

Mama text me while i was on the way to school, "Kak, you're FAVOURITE HERO is DEAD."
I was wondering who could it be. And when she told me it was my first idol ever, i was so shocked. I didn't know how and what to feel. I re-read mum's messages over and over again to make sure i read it right. Without realising, i shed tears in a bus. Oh, i so can't believe this.
Prolly most of you would 'wonder what's so good about MJ that people has to cry for him, anyway?'
I've never told anyone about this. But the truth is, i've always adored him since i was 5. I played his video tape and LD over and over again until the rest of my family members got sick and tired of it and scolded me for that. He moved me with his songs and choreography. I've started to love music ever since. He might not have made any impact to some people's lives, but he did to most of us. He was accused of child molestation. I didn't really believed that. We always knew that he love kids.
He've always tried to change the world to a better place. I absolutely adore his enthusiasm.
I now, trying my very best to not watch his videos. I know i'm not strong enough. And i feel like going to his funeral, in fact. heh.

I hope so bad, that the people who've known him personally would forgive his wrong-doings. There's no one in the world, who's perfect. So don't act as if you're all great.
Let us all pray for him. His life may be over for now but his songs and moves will never be forgotten. He will remain in our hearts.

... and i really feel a great loss.

The worse thing is, dreaming of watching him performing Live and now has to end here.
Maybe i'll see you in my dreams, Jacko. I'll always love you.

-Heal the world, make it a better place.-

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super tired weekend

Sunday, June 21, 20098:05 PM

Firstly, i would like to apologize for having such lazy fingers to update my blog.
I must admit, i'm pretty fatigue.
Had a long and tiring weekend.
Friday was a jamming session for PWN. Ended quite late.
My karaoke set was booked for a wedding occasion the next day, from 1pm to 8pm.
I had no choice but to miss yet another great performance by BlackDiscoBall @ Marina Barrage. Was upsetting, indeed. I've sent my apologies to Uncle Jiji. Sent my regards to the rest of them, hoping they would understand.
I had a great time on that Saturday though. 'Coz my crazy duet partner was around. From the starting of the event till the end, we were really catching up on things. We haven't been seeing each other for quite some time. Even my DJ's crazy. Tell me, how does it feels to work with 2 crazy man? Utterly cool!
I was laughing and smiling away. And there's this cute guy, i think he's married though. He smiled at me thinking that i was smiling at him. I took another glance and smiled back. (:
So anyways, done with that, rushed home. Unpack the stuffs then had a quick shower. Met Kathy at Teh Tarik. She was super duper hungry. And yeah, she was cranky 'coz i was late and she's totally famished. I apologised then head on to Teh Tarik and ordered our food. And oh, i saw another cute guy, he was with his family. The father looked pretty religious. I was practically staring at him, not realising it. Then.. I saw one thing that kinda shocked me for awhile but thought of it again as a common thing these days. I saw tattoos on his left arm. So, yeah. What a waste. heh. I hope he'll change for the better. *pahala doa untuk orang lain walaupun tak kenal. hee.*
Done with the meal, i told Kathy that i brought home some part of the wedding cake and asked if she would like to have some. Her eyes widened and then i know what it means. So, we went back to my place and lepak for awhile. Talked about some stuffs, then she went home. I had to wake up around 545am the next day. Recording session for PWN. Imagine that. I'm looking like a zombie now. But i can't sleep. There's visitors. I'm not sure who. LOL. I'll just wait till the time for a total worn out.

Oh, i sooo can't wait to watch Transformers 2: Revenge of the fallen. The soundtracks from different bands interest me so bad. I hope to watch it this Wednesday with an old friend. Super excited. Wuhoo!

Okay. Gotta end now. Wanna watch some movies to kill time. See ya!

-How i miss you so...-

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tiresome.

Saturday, June 06, 20091:51 PM

Got home late yesterday.
Took the last bus and reached home at about 1 plus in the morning.
Once in a while, it's fun. Ayie wanted me to stay with them(Qader & Zeek) for the first train but i felt sticky and reealllyy tired. So, i had to turn down his offer. He sulked for awhile. LOL.

We met at Far East Plaza to support False Pause at StreetClap 09. It was cool. We got clappers. Zak got herself a StreetClap tees while i got some sort of Youth Games goodies. We both were questioned by the host. Like as if Anabelle Francis know what i was thinking, i wanted to know what's inside the goodie bag. LOL. When she came nearer i was practically mumbling "oh shit. no no no. damn.", and Zeek was smiling. Then she called me up to get the goodie bag and asked, "What's your Name?", "Oh erm, i'm IRA.", "Congratulations AMIRA. Here's for you." -_-
I turned to look at my dearests and they were all laughing.
Then came the results. False Pause won 2nd place. They were awesome. Ashek didn't look like Osama that day. And Ian wears a mask out of a sudden. All of them looked mysteriously hot with their jumpsuits and all.
So, went to Taka Garden after that. Miru asked Yat along to the gents while we joined Yat's gf and her sister at the garden. She prepared the cake and waited for us to surprise Yat. It didn't really happen as planned 'coz Zeek wanted to do something else at the last minute. Miru called and already saying they are on the way there. Then thought of making it simple, but they've reached. So, it's no longer a surprise. heh.

The shy birthday boy.

And then, when the musicians combined.. Topics were everywhere. Soccer, music, this and that. So, i let them be. It's great to see how well they get along.

While the rest were busy chatting away, Qader's busy doing his "thang" with his skateboard.

Next up will be Arajua and BlackDiscoBall. heh. I can't wait to see this family clan of ours to build up and shine together.

Patchwork Neurology with False Pause.

-Team Ozawa.-

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penniless yet again.

Friday, June 05, 20091:14 AM

Went out the whole week.
As Patchwork Neurology are all having a break, i've spent this moment of time to really catch things up with BFFs and family. Went out with mum and sis the past two days. Had a great time, great bonding, finally.
Yesterday's one of my BFF's birthday, Hadri. So, spent the day with them at Seoul Garden then Singapore Flyers. He turned 22. I believe he's very much proud of his age. LOL.
Happy Birthday, bro. You deserve the happiness you need. We'll always be there for you, man. Love you loads.

The birthday boy.

I really had a great time. Thanks to BFFs and their partners. They're all wonderful. That's them. No matter how far we are, we get even closer as time goes by. So cheerful, lovely, protective and always caring. I always feel secure whenever they're with me. Love you guys to bits.

From left: Lini, Ira, Fadhli, Arfas, Yana
Below: Hadri
Not in picture: Nad, Satria, Suzy

Gonna support False Pause later in the evening at Far East. After which will celebrate Yat's birthday. I hope we're all gonna have a great time despite the problems we had recently. As Ian from FP says, "do handle this case properly, k.. ", bet i would. heh. How great is it to have a family clan in the music industry. hahs. The care and concern for each and every members is always there.
Well, that's all for now. I'm tired. Gonna turn in rather early tonight.
Toodles!

-Never give up in simple distractions in life that can bring us down.-

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