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Wednesday, January 28, 200912:10 PM

It's been one of the craziest days for the past 2 days. Let's see.. Where should i start...?
Ok. So, the boys and i(except for ayie, zeek and idah), went out last Monday. Celebrated our CNY at Mustafa Center. LOL. Zak joined us too. I bought some deodorants and travelling pack shampoo, just in case it's out of stock at home. They're all cheap. $2.50 for an Adidas Deodarant Spray? Wow. heh. Miru and myself grabbed them. And i've tried. It stayed for long! Power kapah..! So Micey Miru bought deodorants, VS body spray, shaver and it's gel. After that, we went for dinner at my favourite 24-hours thosai shop. I don't know the name, but i know it's nice. Heh. We all ate thosai since i recommended it. Hahs. After all that done, we headed to Bugis. Lepak-ing there till morning. Walked pass through Jalan Kubor. The intention was to scare me out. But i knew their silly idea, and remained as cool as possible. We went in that road, our right and left view were filled with tombstones. I didn't dare to look around as i felt something, and already shivering by then. Then.. I smelled that scent. The Frangipani scent. I looked at Yat, who was walking beside me, looking around, then he turned to look at me, and the smiled, pulled me to the other side which puts me in the middle, and kept walking. Then we saw this Indian Bapok with some men. That cracked some laughter among us. LOL. Thinking if they are OK. What are they doing on that road? Especially tombstones are all around. JENG JENG JENG~ We may never know, do we? LOL.
Finally, we reached the end of the road and headed towards Bras Basah Complex. I still felt something strange, so i kept quiet. Then Qader asked, "Ira, why the silence? You smell it, don't you? Hahaha. I love the smell sia". -_- I love this guy whenever he tried to make me laugh. It seemed cute to me. Haha. And then Miru's turn to ask, "Ira, asal senyap? Kena sampuk pe.. Haha!" another -_- . Then he continued, "Let's continue walking to the other side uh. Explore.", i replied, "No Way. Enough of it today. I ain't ready for it.", he reply was, "That's the catch. It's better if you're not prepared for it. It won't be an explore if you're prepared.", then i said, "I know myself, Miru. I know what will happen. And i don't want it to repeat again. Not this time." Then he went on.. I know he's unhappy about it. Hahs. Well, too bad. I know myself better on this. And i won't do what i don't wanna do. Especially when my instincts say it's right.
So, we reached Bras Basah Complex eventually. I was still silent. Didn't wanna talk much. Irritated by Miru's childish acts. We went to MacDonalds and played Uno. After few rounds of playing normal Uno, we played Wolf & Hunter. One hell of a great game. Hahs. Qader's a good actor, btw. LOL. And so is Miru. -_-
After all that, Zak's friend came and joined us.. Then we played Black Magic. What a game. Hahs. Cracked our heads to figure out the trick. Finally, at around 6+ in the morning, we head home. The next day looking like a zombie. LOL. Went to Waterloo St. Jamming session started at 3pm. I was pissed because of someone. The mood for jamming faded. Since they decided to play acoustic, we went for it still. But this time round, the atmosphere was totally different. At Odiocrib Studio. The big room. So spacious that i can actually lie down and sleep. LOL. By 5:15pm, we started packing. Met Zak again, at Bras Basah Complex. Idah had to leave for some reunion dinner. Heh. We had our dinner at MacDonalds. Then played Wolf & Hunter again. Hahs. Afterwhich, came the trick game again. Felt silly though. Hahs. We left MacDonalds around 1045pm and head home.

So, ITE Band Idol is just a day away. And i pray the very best for my dearests. Since it's my last week at work, i can't possibly take leave. My pay will be indeed, as low as it already is. I just hope everything will go smoothly tomorrow and hope to meet them after that. Good Luck, darlings.

-A good actor, lies the best.-

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Sunday, January 25, 200912:28 PM

WOW.
Alhamdulillah. Gig's over. Looking forward for the competitions now.
And to those who came, a HUGE thank you i must say, to you guys. Thanks for supporting PWN. You guys rock!

PWN with Friends & Families
Not in picture: Hasni & Nadiah

So yesterday was lotsa fun. Didn't expect huge response from our friends and families. There are last minute ones. 15 tickets wasn't enough. If i knew, i would've get 20 tickets and ask for my $25 back. LOL.
Videos will be uploaded in YouTube pretty soon. Waiting for Micey Miru to transfer the files. And oh, i forgot that i haven't update the updates in MySpace. LOL.

Anyways, wish us luck for Thursday and Saturday's competition. ITE Idol & Battle Of The Band 2009, here we come~!

p/s: I still can't believe someone just said we're kerek. Nevermind that. We're the low-profilers. LOL? (:

I felt nothing when you went silent. I just wonder why you did that. Nevertheless, Idah told to never ask anything. If he were to come back, JUAL MAHAL. LOL. Have been doing that, though. Only thing, he's been too sweet to ignore. So i thought it's worth a try. But i guess, that didn't turn out right. So, i'm gonna stick to being ME. Ignorance is a bliss~

-It goes on and on..-

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Friday, January 23, 20092:07 PM

Time passes by so fast without me realizing it.
It's Friday already. Just a day before our gig.
And i must say some of my boys are pretty hyped up about it. Some just don't care. And to the ones who don't care, i'll make sure they CARE. Reputations and discipline are the top priority for me, as their BM. So i'm gonna make sure they practice hard. I wouldn't want them to turn down their friends and fans who's coming. Ok. I'm super-excited about tomorrow. But Micey Miru is sick. That worries the hell out of me. Hopefully he's fine soon. Anyways, after a very long time since i've been to a date, i'll be going for one tomorrow, eventually. Heh. That surprises me. To not feel the excitement and the eagerness to go for a date. I've gotta work on that. Maybe it's been awhile.. So.. yeah. Urgh. So much things to do. So much things to think of. I just don't know where to start.

So, the planning of our own gig is almost done. A need to have a crew meeting soon. Need some ideas and feedbacks. And then gather the bands for a mass meeting. Afterwhich, prepare the posters, tickets and lanyards. I hope the crew are co-operative enough in helping out with all these..
I'm so gonna need a new job soon. For the preparation of the gig. I've had some. But afraid it won't be enough. *sigh*
Quitting soon.. Like end of the month. 'Coz of some complications. Heh.
There are some offers. But.. i don't know if i should take up that opportunity. I'm afraid of getting too much stress. I don't wanna go crazy in the end, you know. Hmm.. Maybe i should just try and decide later.

BFFs. When will i ever meet you guys?? Make a date! I'm missing out stuffs! heh.

I miss my brother. Gotta catch things up with him soon.

-Hypnotised and Mesmerised.-

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Happy Birthday Dearest Auntie & Idrus.

Monday, January 19, 20091:08 AM

Firstly, i would like to wish dearest Aunt & friend, A Very Happy Belated Birthday. Heh. My aunt, Maknia, turned 61 and dearest friend, Idrus, turned 25. Falls on the same day! Had a small birthday party at home earlier. Had to rush from Bugis to Tampines since brother was somehow mad at me for going out when i know he's gonna be there early. There was a jamming session. I can't possibly leave my darlings just like that. I had to watch them and spot their mistakes. It all ended around 6+. So, PWN and me quickly rushed home. Since Maknia invited PWN at the very last minute, i had to tell them like a day ago about it. They seemed half-hearted at first. And just just now they all decided to go. And i was like, OOOK~ Things have been pretty tight for me. Rushing here and there. So i didn't invite my dearest girlfriends. Since i knew i'm gonna reach home quite late and dear Hasni won't be able to stay up late. I deeply apologise for that. It was uncalled for. So, i hope you girls can understand that.

So anyways, sincere apologies for abandoning this dusty blog i have. It's not that i don't have anything to blog about. I just can't seem to bother about it. I don't know why. I feel like blogging, but i'm just too lazy. To type it out, explain it all. It's just so complicating. And with all that said, dearest Qader seemed to understand my problems. He've helped alot. Searching for sessionists, settling this and that. I've just realised how sweet he can be. And i admire that side of him. But to recall that i've lost someone whom i used to share my everyday life with, not that he's gone totally, he just refused to be that person i knew before anymore, it saddens me. BIG TIME. And yes, i gained a new one. But it's never the same. And i just have to move on. That taught me something. To not rely on others too much. Even though it hurts, i still love him like i used to. That never changes. It will NEVER do. Dearest Miru, do go for check-ups soon. It sickens me out to know that you're not okay. Stop worrying me. 'Coz i can't stop until i know you're okay.

I guess i'll stop here now.
Getting pretty tired while thinking of a place to go for a date.
Help me think, someone? LOL.

-When i thought it feels different. It remains still. Or perhaps, getting stronger.-

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Belated Birthday Prezzie!

Monday, January 05, 200910:54 PM

Wuuuhhooooo!(imitating Missy Fatin's tone.)

I had fun, just now. Met Qader after work. He accompanied me to Sim Lim. I got myself a new External Hard Disk and a new D-Link USB Adapter. Like FINALLY.. finally i can have more space in my hard drives and..... i go wireless again~
Ok power.
After that, we went to Tong Seng to meet Hasni & Fatin. Had dinner then off we went to shop. Poor Qader had to be alone while we shop. Sorry, Panda...
Bought Hasni her birthday gift, a Freshbox bag. It's nice. I wanted to get one for myself too, but my file cant fit in. So, i had to forget about it. heh. Then Hasni bought me a necklace. Oh, she bought one for Fatin too. For both our belated birthday gifts. Happy Belated Birthday, btw, Fatin. Wuhhhhooo!

So, good news. Patchwork Neurology got into finals in TalentQuest 09. It will be held at Rock Auditorium on early March. Will update again on that. Congratulations, guys. I never saw it coming, honestly. But hey, you guys were great. It was definitely better than Asian Beats. So, congrats again. Video will be posted up real soon in YouTube. Dearest Miru is busy. So, gotta wait for awhile.
Schedules will be tight for us. We're preparing for the competition and some other gigs. And again, of course i'll keep you guys updated.

That's all for now. I'm pretty shagged. See ya!

-2009. Sure is shining on us.-

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The unexpected.

Sunday, January 04, 200910:41 PM

I don't know why.
I tend to get pretty stressed up over small things.
And yes, that includes getting mad easily, throwing tantrums anytime, anywhere..etc
I'm afraid of my old self. Is it finally showing? Is there a comeback?
I pray hard, that never happens. It's not about being afraid of having no friends, being lonely.
It's about hurting the people i love most, torturing them, and having regrets later on.
I've had enough of that in my past. No repeats, please.

So, i met my dearest ex yesterday, at Changi Village, with maybe his girlfriend. There was 5 of us, sitting next to my ex's table. And hell yeah, i felt real uneasy. Firstly, i wanted to meet him so bad after the break-up. I heard loads of things happened to him after i left him. And i felt bad, seriously. Secondly, he's with maybe a new girlfriend. They didn't look like a couple. So, might be yes, might not. I was trying so hard to not look at him since my back is facing them. But he saw Mama. And since, Iqa said he kept looking over our place, i assume he knew i was there. So when they were leaving, he walked behind the girl, took a glance at me and smiled. O M G. How i miss that smile. -sigh- From that moment on, the memories keep flashing in my mind until i fell asleep in the car. And yes, i felt a huge regret. Like a big hard rock dropped on me. I felt real heavy. I wanted to keep in contact with him so bad. Since the last 2 years. I looked for him almost everywhere. And when i knew where he was at that point of time, i lost hope. I knew i gotta move on. And, so here i am. When i thought i'm never gonna bump into him ever again. Indeed, SG is small.

Oh Come On! I don't need this mushy-mushy feelings now. Gotta get hold of myself. Move on. And then when the day i bump into him again, i'll start that all over again. -_-
Geez! Ok. Enough. I gotta change myself, again. Before anything else happens. Not only for myself, for the people i love too.

Dear god, help me yet again.

-Unexpected Comeback-

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Happy 2009!

Friday, January 02, 20093:38 PM

Ok. I might be late but still, Happy 2009, people!
May this year's a better year with better resolutions to fulfill. Above all, hope this year's gonna be a BRIGHTER, INTERESTING and MEANINGFUL year.

Went out on the eve of new year. Met Has, Fatin & Pe'ah to celebrate dearest Hasni's belated birthday at Seoul Garden. Happy Belated Birthday, girlfriend. May all your wishes come true. Be a good girl now.
After that, met Miru and Yat around Marina Square. While waiting for the fireworks, we sat at the Marina steps. Laughing, joking and making fun of people around us. The fireworks was a BOMB, especially the last part. Massive attack. heh. So we didn't really celebrate as we are NOT allowed to do so, as a Muslim. And oh, i must say i was exercising myself with the boys. From Marina Square, we went to Bugis, the intention was to have dinner at Tong Seng. But the food stall's closed. So we went to Arab Street. Which was indeed, a far journey. As Miru wasn't that full, we went to Kopitiam opposite Bras Basah Complex after that. And again, closed. So we hang around at MacD until 6am. Miru didn't want to leave yet, but at that point of time, a group of Matreps came in and one of them started to disturb me.. So i begged Miru, for us to leave. I took the chance to leave first when i saw THAT Matrep went to the Gents. Once i lost his sight, i moved quickly to the exit. And then..*phew*
I was embarassed by what he did. Waving at me. Staring at me. Trying his best to get my attention. There's this cute guy beside my table, took a glance at who THAT Matrep was teasing. I caught his sight and then.... *dag dug dag dug* haha! Cuteness. But heck, i was feeling very uneasy at that time. And wanted to leave that bad. Stupid Typical Matreps. -_-

So, i guess. That's all for now.
Gotta get ready to meet the boys and.. waiting for updates from my sis-in-law in regards to my brother's condition. Another accident. I wonder how bad, this time. -sigh-

-Live it Loud.-

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