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Thursday, August 06, 20099:01 PM
Today is Thursday. I am physically and mentally tired.
I know i'm pressurized, but i'm not sure why i am not stressed up that much. Prolly 'coz i'm quite used to it. I can't continue with my assignment. I'm having a headache. Not to the extend of reaching the worse yet. I hope it won't or i'll get very groggy. So, the whole week has been rather busy for me. Either with work, school or shopping. LOL. I've hardly shop these days okay. Once in a while, why not, right? And oh, i've been feeling rather happy about how my life has changed bit by bit. Alhamdulillah. And yes, somebody has got to do with it. I rather zip it 'till it's official. (: Oh my, i think i haven't got much to say. But i'm hoping, one day, that someone will read this. Someone who means rather alot to me. So, here goes. To Dear Someone, I've been trying to say this to you but i haven't got the guts to spit it out. So, here i am, hoping you would read this one day, with arms wide open, accepting every word i've to say. Ever since i saw you, i feel as if my eyes were locked into yours. I just can't help but to stare at you, eyeing on every move you made. Yes, i find it cute. And that's what attracts me. The way you look back at me and smile, oh how i melt with it. Oh, i know it's early to say that i like you, but there, i've said it. I like you, i do. And it scares me to death knowing that the feelings i have, grew stronger. I never wanted it to happen. I know you wanted things to go slowly, it's what i wanted too. But i could never imagine it would turn out this way. After what i've been through with guys the past 3 years, i never thought i would fall for someone as fast as this again. Then i felt an overpowering heartbreak when i've been unintentionally hurting you. Deep in my heart, i would have never hurt you. It kills me to hurt you. Sometimes, when you feel that your partner is too good for you, you tend to do stupid, unthinkable things. Either to get their attention or leave them 'coz you thought they deserve better. With all my heart, i like you alot. But i'm not sure if you feel the same way for me. I never really see the signs. Then perhaps, i'm not good enough for you. So, upon reading this, i hope you know how i feel towards you. And the reasons to why i acted strangely. I felt insecure. And now that you've stopped contacting, somehow i already know what it means. I'll be prepared for the consequences. All you have to do is, take good care of yourself. I guess, that is all i have to say. Hoping that you would forgive all my mistakes. Much Much Love, Ira p/s: Bonz, thanks for always spending your night off with me. Coming down to the east just to see me. I appreciate it loads. I miss you to bits. -Back to feeling lonely and i gotta get used to it yet again.- |
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