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when the bad news came after the good news.
Sunday, March 01, 200912:43 AM
It's been 3 nights Mama has been admitted to CGH. She had bad migraine, bad heart condition and high blood pressure. It all started with some arguments between her, her friend and Iqa. I didn't know anything until one by one, called me on my mobile. I was shocked. Didn't know what to do. It's a long complicating story. So, i don't wish to story-tell in here. I've let it all out to Ayie, my dearest PWN hero, last night. From the day i cried in front of Miru, 'till the night i felt like killing my dad. And yeah, i cried after letting it all out. He even told me he felt like crying, hearing my story. LOL. I'm not sure if he does. And yeah, problems just grew bigger at times. I must say i was out of control. It has always been me as the middle person, the one who has to think of what to do, the one who have to have a solution to every problem there is. And i swear, it tires and sickens me out. And then, it's back to square one. Me being quiet with nothing much left to say.
Mum, it's never a burden to hear you out. Every single problems you have, it's my responsibility to listen and do my best to make things right. I just don't feel comfortable telling people about my problems. So, i tend to shut myself. Coz i've learned, in life, you can't rely on anyone but yourself. Sharing others, might burden them too. I've been there. And it hurts to have trusted someone, but in the end, they gave up on us. So let me carry all this alone and find the way out to every dark moments we have. I love you. So if you were to go, i'll follow wherever you'll be. PWN can take good care of themselves. p/s: Thank you, Hasni & Kathy. For visiting Mama. I appreciate it alot. Let us all pray for her well-being. -It's never easy to make a wise decision.- |
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