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Friday, March 27, 20092:16 PM
As i type this, my mind is jam packed with loads of things.
But what's most irritating is to have his picture on my mind. There are alot of updates from her that i realise she's never giving up on him. And it tore me apart. I can't do this anymore. Because every time i think of him, it suffocates me. On the other hand, i want him to be happy. The best for him. He, who matters most is slipping away. I need someone to talk to. But it's only 1420hours. Hero is working. Miss Curly is i believe, still snoring. I'll have to do this on my own. I'll just do whatever i can to ignore the pain. This time, it hurts so bad. I still can't believe i do stupid things just to relieve the pain when i know it hurts me more. And yes, i got scolding from mum last night. I deserve it somehow. I never did tell her anything about it though. All i said was, "Gig, mum. I'm afraid some bands are not able to sell off the tickets and i've to fork out my own money". Well, that's another thing i'm worried about. Sigh. I just hope all is well soon enough. And Hasni, if you're reading this. Congratulations for getting yourself someone new. Hope this time works well for you. All the very best. Ku akui ku sangat sangat menginginkanmu Tapi kini ku sadar ku diantara kalian Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi Ku akui ku sangat sangat mengharapkanmu Tapi kini ku sadar ku tak akan bisa Aku tak mengerti ini semua harus terjadi Lupakan aku kembali padanya Aku bukan siapa-siapa untukmu Ku cintaimu tak berarti bahwa Ku harus memilikimu slamanya ..and tears fall. -Just how can i lie to my ownself?- |
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