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best prank ever
Tuesday, July 29, 20081:40 AM
Just got home from the jamming session the boys were having.
I wasn't really in the mood. Miru was having aches on his right arm. Damn boy, i don't wanna risk losing any member of this band. I won't fire any of you, i'll resign myself if any of that happens. heh. And then i was told Qader, the bass man, wanted to quit the band. I freaked out. I had tears rolling down my face. We're already like a family. It's like 1 man down, dead. So, i seriously didn't have the mood these days. Miru told me they've found themselves a new bassist. I honestly felt empty. I wasn't overjoyed by the replacement AT ALL. So, i just gave a sigh. Believed in myself that i can talk things out with Qader. I tried my best. But i guess he was just busy. Until today... I was told that the new bassist would be late. And i was once told to be ready for the new bassist. But i just couldn't. I knew i had to accept the fact and respect Qader's decision. So while Miru went to fetch the new bassist, the rest were setting up, i was playing my PSP game, wondered why Miru grabbed his video cam from me before he left. But i let him be. So when he came in, recording this scene whereby i was friggin' shocked to see a very familiar face, standing at the door. It was Qader. I didn't know how horrible i looked like but i was really overjoyed by this prank of the band. It was Miru's idea. Didn't know why he likes to disturb me this way, but i was happy. Really, i was. haha. The best prank EVER. Thanks boys. I love ya'll so much. Haha. And again, please take good care of yourself Miru. For the first time I feel awkward when i see you Maybe it's just how i feel Dear god, please let this feelings fade away. -PWN!- |
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Monday, July 28, 200812:24 PM
this feeling is indescribable.
i wish i knew what i feel. i wish i knew what it meant. it's getting more complicated. and i think i'm going insane. i've to find something new. something that can help me move on. if only you knew. MIRU. you're making me worried like hell la~ e-d-yet. -Confused. Clueless. Complicated. |
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Youth-ified 2008 Competition
Saturday, July 19, 20089:05 PM
Oh damn. I'm so tired. Feeling sick too.
Just got home from Hong Kah North CC. Was there the whole day from 10am. The journey seemed to be forever. BUT, anything for my boys. =) When i reached, called Miru. He ushered me to the hall. The boys seemed to be quiet. Nervous, i guess. So, i let them be.. I know they'll do fine. But i guess i was wrong. haha! Once they were called to perform, everything was a cock-up. haha! The beat was faster than the original ones they've practiced. An's vocal got hoarsed. terkehel jap dia.. kesian~ Everyone had their own mistakes. I must say i'm not blaming any of them. They were tired & exhausted. Ayie the drummer, though, was awesome. Well, it's their first performance together. And i believe they can do much much better the next time round. Speaking of which, they'll be having a gig in the Arts House on 10th of August, 3.30pm to 4pm. Look me in MSN, if you wanna get yourself a ticket to watch Patchwork Neurology. Most prolly, i'll be there. Anyways, after their performance, there was a 1 hour break. So we went to the nearest coffee shop. Sat there and talk about almost everything about their plans in the future. They wanna make it big. So, they need a manager. Miru always treat me as their manager, which i always thought he was joking, never knew the rest knows about it too. So now.. left with me to decide. It won't be an easy job. I don't think i'm able to find myself a job if i need to help this band, make it big. To think again, i've said ANYTHING for PWN. So, i will do everything i can to help them. Don't mind doing it FOC. As long as i can help, they're happy, i'll be happy too. Like i said, being a band manager is never an easy job. As Miru says, "It won't be an easy job uh. You still wanna become our manager? Or you want me to cancel your application?" lols. I REALLY love these guys. I know things can happen for this band. They're so different than other local bands i've seen. So, i decide to ask each and everyone again if they think i can make it as their manager. Everyone said OK. So, i'm gonna start from the very bottom. I need assistance in all these. Now, i've to start getting myself an organizer. Plan everything for them. Jamming sessions, date of releasing EPs, demos and all. And above all of this, i hope we can work things out together, guys. We all need each other. No matter how bad you guys think you did just now, you guys are still the best and will always be. All the very best to you guys, and myself. haha! Love ya'll. ..and so, i'm gonna take my rest now. I'm tired myself. Mentally and physically tired. heh. -Insyallah, i can do this. For you guys. Only for you guys.- |
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MIddle Person.
Friday, July 18, 200812:05 PM
I'm tired.
Sleepless night again, i guess. Went out with the girls, last night. Had dinner at Pizza Hut. Was damn kecohrable. I had fun, girls. Really. I miss you guys. At the same time, Miru text me saying something like this, "Ira, manager ku. Help me book a jamming room for us for tomorrow, at 8.30pm to 10pm. Can? Ira baik & cute..." (tagline si miru. once dia dah start puji-memuji tu, aku faham sangat lah ape dia nak..) And it wasn't only one jamming room that i've to call. haha. Hasni was like, "How much do they pay you for doing this?" haha. Seriously Hasni, i love them. They're like family. Ups and downs, we all go through it TOGETHER. Anything for Patchwork Neurology. Back to the booking of jamming room. They wanted to book at 4tones, 1am to 3am instead. When i called the owner, he asked to text him the infos. Then i gave a sigh of relief and said to myself, 'FINALLY.' BUT, i forgot to text him after that. I was tired of making phone calls, with text messages coming in and all. After having so much laughter with my girls, Mama called me up and said her godson asked her out and she asked if i could join them too. So i waited for her godson to pick me up at Paya Lebar. While waiting, i was thinking hard. What was i wanting to do but i forgot? Book a jamming room? Done. (that was on my mind. i don't know how can i actually forgot to text the owner of 4tones.) Miru was telling me An has problems with the early jamming on Saturday. I understand An's position. I would panic myself. He's afraid his voice would turn hoarse because of lacking of sleep. So i said, ok. Just relax and i'll talk to An. I text An and asked where he was and he asked if we could chill for a while. Then i told Mama's godson to sit and talk at East Coast, Mc Cafe. Met An there and he let it all out. I pitied him. I don't think Miru meant to put me as the middle person, he knows i love them too much and i cared. Definitely i want this band to last. After talking to An, i was getting worried about him and the rest actually, but he said things would be fine. He will be OK. Let that be another sacrifice. Whatever it is, guys, talk it out. Learn from the past mistakes. That will put you guys in a better state. Whatever happens, i'm always here, and will always support you guys. Love ya'll. =) Ok so, reached home around 2am, said my goodbyes to An, Mama's godson and his friends (met them at Mc Cafe itself. they were funny. An couldn't stop laughing.) Then again, i couldn't sleep. I felt something's missing. I was thinking hard. Read my text messages again. And then... TA DA~ i forgot to text owner of 4tones. haha! I quickly text that guy (was around 3am, that time) and said whatever i had to. Still, i couldn't sleep after that. I was afraid he didn't get my text message. LUCKILY, he miss called me at 10am this morning. I woke up, called him and confirmed the booking. NOW, i don't have to worry about how to explain myself to Miru. haha! I was reeaalllyyy afraid of getting scolded by him. Kena sekali, dah cukop. Gugup aku dibuatnya. So, i can't wait for tomorrow. Hope everything turns out well. -Patchwork Neurology. My heart, My soul.- |
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Wednesday, July 16, 200811:38 AM
Be sure to catch Patchwork Neurology this Saturday, 19th of July.
Time: 10am Venue: Hong Kah North CC I can barely wait! I'm soo in love with this band, that i came to almost every jamming sessions they had. lols. I can be a very fanatic person, you know. hahs. And yeah, got home late again yesterday. As usual, their jamming session, i'm the camera woman. Then went home with An & Yat. Had a drink at the Teh Tarik coffee shop. Talked for a while then head home. They were reeaalll good last night. I hope they'll rock the stage this Saturday. I'm soo looking forward watching you guys. I know you won't disappoint me. Oh Miru, videos please... =) Ok, so who's up for this? Look me in MSN if you're interested. I don't friggin' mind going alone. But who knows, you guys wanna check out something different in a band, this time.. right? AND now i've a problem. What should i wear? *in deep thoughts* -May GOD bless our friendship. Love ya'll.- |
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Sunday, July 13, 20088:25 PM
I made it so clear how I feel, just what more can I do? Every single time I try something pops up anew My feelings pain me deeply, buried deep in heart and soul And I truly wonder, can I ever again be whole? I try so hard to sort myself, come to terms with everything But everything I tell myself has such a shallow ring It always seem to be that I must be the one to try And sometimes it hurts so much, yet mostly I just break down and cry Wait.... Each stupid little thing, hurts just too damned much And I feel that I might die from just one more touch My feelings are in turmoil, and there's only one constant And though I try to clear my mind it seems that I just can't I've got myself into this place I know it's all my fault But since I've started falling I just cannot seem to halt I love you with every bone, each fiber of my being But sometimes it seems to save myself, I am always fleeing Fleeing from the truth, the reality of how things are Struggling not to let my heart suffer one more scar But from dawn's first light to the setting of the sun You're always on my mind, and have been from day one How can something oh so right, cause so much pain Well this is the question, and it's driving me insane The only happiness I feel is when I'm with you But you just dont care , so how can it be true ? -This is a poem.. written just for you.- |
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Major Headache! Help!
Friday, July 11, 200812:46 PM
I'm now suffering from a major headache.
I didn't have anything for dinner, last night. I didn't have any mood to eat. Neither was i hungry. So, when i reached home around 1+ in the morning, i found myself sleepless because of the headache i was having, still having. heh. Met Miru at Chinese Garden yesterday, with his bandmates, Patchwork Neurology. Followed them for their jamming session at X-Tech's own jamming studio. =) Was hoping the vocalist was around, but nah. Miru was like, 'eh, ira. is that guy one of X-tech's guitarist?', i replied, 'huh? who?? i've no idea la.. i can only recognize the vox. lols.', then the rest was like, 'NAMA je X-Tech fan. haha!'. We all laughed. Seriously, i've no idea about how the rest of the bandmates look like. I hardly watch Anugerah Band, you know. But i can remember Fatskunks' percussionist. Kinda hot. haha! Anyways, Patchwork Neurology. The band's raw. Really an awesome band. They totally rock my socks. They'll be performing for a competition on the 19th of July, at Hong Kah CC. If you love music, you should really check them out. It's worth it. I'm already a fan.. hahs. The members were great. Friendly, nice and funny. Found myself mixing with the percussionist and the vocalist at the end of the day. We sit and talked at a coffee shop in tampines. They are indeed, cool. I'm so glad i made new friends. And i wouldn't wanna miss the chance to say Thank You, to dearest Miru. Told you, i need you. =) I wouldn't wanna talk much about what happened the other day. I admit it was my fault. But i really think we should talk it out. You still owe me your stories, Miru. And i'm still waiting for it. -Thank God, i've found you.- |
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sorry seems to be the hardest words.
Wednesday, July 09, 20083:50 PM
Sorry..
For ive misjudged you Sorry.. For ive said something stupid Sorry.. For all ive done For all ive said It was all unintentionally spoken. Things got way out of hand. And i'm sorry i got you pissed. I realise what i did. Jeapardizing your name and honour. It all started when suddenly hatred turned into love. It blossomed, as you say. Didn't thought it would blossomed this way. I got angry with what you did. And say things i didnt mean. A promise made. And i know i have to keep. A mistake i've to make it right. And so, i'm leaving it all behind. Hoping you would too. Letting you live in peace. -Sorry is left to be said..- |
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Tuesday, July 08, 200811:41 PM
Stop pretending, my love
I just hate pretenders Why must you pretend? What are you implying? Pretenders are never a pleaser Why don't you just be yourself I like you the way you used to be So cool, so smart and natural Heart-warmer you've been I just don't get it Honey, why the drastic change? I thought you were the only one for me But suddenly you turned yourself into a creep A complete betrayal of trust. You said she's just a friend She said it's something more And i am lost To whom i'm supposed to trust Just let me go.. And now that i've lost you There's no chance of turning back And that's okay.. 'Cause it's your loss, darling, not mine. Oh.. Just stop pretending, my love.. 'Cause pretenders are never a pleaser.. -Pretenders are never a pleaser.- |
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barmaid?
Monday, July 07, 20088:29 PM
I have been thinking alot. With family problems and others too much on hand AND mind, i thought of working in a nightlife environment. A barmaid maybe? Ira Syahirah, the barmaid. How about that? lols.
My dearest Superhero indirectly said NO to my suggestion. He said something like this, Him: Barmaid?? You don't even club, and you want to become a barmaid? Me: Haha! I just wanna work at nights. Him: For what? I'm sure you won't like it. Me: Why not? Him: I wanna quit nightlife, myself. You've no idea. I've been through a lot of things.. Haiz... I just wanna get over things and move on. And working at nights will definitely help me. I'll never feel lonely at night, anymore. I don't have to wait for text messages, neither a phone call. But Wan said it won't work. So i changed my mind about telling Amin about this. Damn right i'm gonna get myself grilled! It's sooo hard to get a job these days. So, Miru, how am i to go for end-of-year holiday in Bali?? -Conveying emotions through songs..- |
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H L E P!
Wednesday, July 02, 200811:31 AM
Ok. I'm in a stress-mode.
Mama asked for Amin's number last night, and called him up. I was practically beside her and i heard what was the conversation all about. She was actually asking Amin for help. Telling Amin to talk to me as she thought im really in a stress of something. She was like saying, 'Abang, help mama talk to Ira. She spent alot after getting her pay and the GST credits thingy. I'm worried she's in a stress or something. So, talk to her ok?'. And i was like staring blankly at her. She was like laughing. Showing the look of, 'You don't wanna talk to me what...' So, tell me. What should i do? I don't know where to start if this conversation were to ever build-up by Amin. -Dear God. Help me.- |
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Sepi Sekuntum Mawar Merah II
Tuesday, July 01, 200810:38 PM
H E L L O !!!
Just got back from town. I've been shopping a lot the past few days. (maklomlah, dah dapat GST Credits plus gaji kan..~) But i didn't really shop today. Mama, my godmother and Iqa did shopping the most. heh. Actually, yesterday i spent friggin' loads! Almost half my money gone on shopping. Imagine this, i checked my bank account yesterday afternoon, there was about $700 more or less. After shopping, i draw it all out straight away. Passed the balance to my aunt. Scary~ haha. So, anyways. I am totally in love with a song by Ella, and let mama hear it. Then she was like, 'Kak. What's wrong with you? You don't wanna share anything with me already uh? Why you so secretive uh?', i kept quiet. She went on, 'You told Abg(Amin) about everything?', and i said, 'how to? he's so busy dancing..', *rolls eyes*. She said, 'Then what about your own brother?', i said, 'Ma, he's got a wife already, for goodness sake's. I don't wanna trouble him anymore. Enough with our dearest sister's problems already.', she went silent for a while..then continued, 'Then to whom you confide in?', i replied, 'I share most my problems with either Hasni, or Firdiana. Used to share it all with Mr A, but.. long story. And oh, i usually throw my anger at my dearest Superhero. Poor him. Haha!'. So.. that was all about it. Mama's concerned, i know. I understand. But i just can't bring myself to tell her everything that has happened. Futhermore, i don't know where to start. So, i'll show you the lyrics of Ella's song. If you have questions like Mama does, don't hesitate to ask. heh. Berulang kali kumencuba Memujuk hati Lupakan semua Kenangan... Namun mimpi bertemu lagi Di saat engkau Tiada di sisi... Ku berpegang pada janji Tercipta antara kita dulu Hilangmu tiada berganti Biarlah begini Ku belayar di lautan Tidak bertepian Sesekali disedarkan Ombak yang mendatang Aku seperti hilang Punca arah dan tujuan Aku puisikan namamu Bersama rindu Di dalam sendu... And..yes. This is the hardest to forget. *sigh..* -Sepi Sekuntum Mawar Merah II- |
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