Jamming 131108 @ FourTones
Friday, November 14, 200812:09 AM
Met Miru & Yat at City Hall control station around 615pm. Waited for Hafiz CTH at Peninsula exit. He reached around 630pm. He wanted their videos. So i passed him my thumbdrive and together, we walked to Clarke Quay. Miru, Yat & me went for FourTones Studio while Hafiz went to his workplace. We parted near the bridge. Shockingly, he did something he've never done for soo long. He said, "Ok lah. We gotta split from here. I gotta cross over. I'll pass you back your stuff soon. See you around ok? And take care". With that, he hugged me tightly and kissed my forehead..for quite a moment. -total blank- Yes, i was shocked. So shocked, that i didn't realise there were eyes staring at us. God. How i missed him. If Ersyad were to get through my blog, i can't imagine how he would criticise me about it. Yes, Ersyad. Love can't be forced. I'm sorry for hurting you, and no, he hasn't always been there, physically. But he has ALWAYS been in my heart. Maybe i didn't realise it or somehow i'm just too stubborn to accept the fact that i loved someone who's not always there. So, i hated him, once. Has, you've been my pillar. You know how i've always complained about his egos and arrogance. Well, i guess, that's just a reason for me to forget him. Or.. maybe not. But then again, i'm not sure myself. I don't wanna fall for the wrong guy, yet again. -sigh-
So, after jamming. We head to LJS for dinner. I was super hungry. After the "above" incident(i don't know if it is one or not), i felt i've been given the strength. The power to love again. ceh. macam paham~ lol. But really, somehow i felt that way. And Miru, why do you keep disturbing me like that? You know i'm quite a sensitive person. Sikit-sikit boleh lah.. Ni melebih pulak. I'm hurt, somehow. Every single thing you do, whether you realise it or not, it's hurting me bit by bit. Yat, too. He's learning to be YOU. And yeah, i'll know you'd reply me, 'well..too bad then.' But put yourself in my position. I don't want us to fight over small things. So, take care of my feelings, and i'll take care of yours. I WILL take my leave if i believe i'm meaningless already. -_-
-WOW. Can i not wash my head and face from now on?-
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