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Thursday, November 20, 200810:17 PM
As i blog this out, i build up my strength and stay as calm as possible.
Breathe in. Breathe out. Dear Mum, I know you've always been such an understanding person. You've always been there to bring me up whenever i'm down. I can never replace your love with something else in this world. And being your precious angel, i tried my best to give the world to you. I'm never perfect. But at least, i tried. Truth is, i'm taken aback by what you said about the boys. About MY BOYs. I know you have your reasons for doing the things you do, saying the things you said. Somehow, i just can't accept it. It hurts..so bad that when i came to think of it again, tears run down my face. You knew how much i loved them. You know too that they mean the world to me. You may think i'm doing this for nothing. I won't even get paid doing the things i do for them. Mum, you know music has been in my blood ever since i was a kid. I may not be IN the band, playing any instruments, being anybody. At least, i helped the people who appreciate music, who wants the world to listen to their original piece, and cherish it. They are so talented. I've never seen any other quite like them. So, i may not get any returns, i just want them to succeed. Remembering me as someone who've once, helped them becoming who they are, in the future. Please, understand me. Restuilah anakmu~ -For once, i'm going against you. I had to and i'm sorry.- |
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