depression period.
Tuesday, October 14, 20089:47 PM
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4 more days to Baby Zeeko's birthday. 8 more days to Curlie Ida's birthday. And i've yet to search for their gifts. I thought of getting Zeek one of Miz29's Dickies berms. But afraid he might not like it. As for Ida, i thought of getting her some accessories, but i hardly see her wearing any. So, i'm confused.
Anyways, took half day today. I seriously need to rest my mind. Need to get away from work and stress for awhile. I've been thinking ALOT lately. Things haven't been getting any better between me and dearest friend. I hope we'll be fine by 3rd November 2008. praying hard~ So, i asked mama out. Queenstown that is. I spent more then $100 just for my Nike slippers and Crumpler sling bag. Well of course, look at the brands. You can burn few hundred dollars on those branded stuffs. haha!
Latest news. Khai text me saying Fadh was mad and jealous about him contacting me. Why? We haven't got a clue. He might be joking, might not too. Before Khai told me this, i text Fadh asking what if Khai wants to befriend me and stuffs. He answered my question with questions. Asking, "Why?? What did he say? He got text you issit?" -_- I don't know what he meant by that. Khai clearly said, the reason why he didn't tell Fadh about him contacting me, afraid Fadh would think differently. So, it's either Fadh is taking REAL good care of me from Buaya Darats OR... allahualam~ When i told Khai maybe Fadh's afraid of getting his dearest BFF into another heart break or whatsoever, might as well he tell Khai off before anything happens. Which i believe, Fadh should know Khai better by now. Then Khai replied, saying it's up to me whether i still want to befriend him. My reply was clear and easy to understand, "I accept you as my friend from the start. I'm not the kinda girl who likes take back her words easily. I will be a close friend if you want me to. Like you, i believe in fate too." (: Well, what Khai and I know is, Khai & Ira are just friends. And we both, believe in fate. So, if we are meant to be, then we will. I'm not saying that i'm hoping for that.. But i leave it to fate. So, we are strictly FRIENDS, for now. -_- what am i saying..~
With all that in mind, i'm sick. I've eating disorders. Sleeping disorders. Sudden headaches. Diarrhoea. uhh.. God knows what will happen next. I haven't been having proper meal. Not that i don't want to. But i just can't bring myself to eat as much as i used to. I seriously think that i've put myself into a tension that can now be undone. It's getting real serious. I've never been through this before. And now that i am, there's no chance of turning back. Slowly going through the rocky stage of life. Hopefully, all's fine soon. 'Cause i don't wanna ignore.
Should i go and rest now? yes, i think i should~
-My Depression Period.-
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