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through with you.
Sunday, June 29, 20082:12 PM
Days filled with sorrows.
Nights filled with tears. The feeling is still there for you. I can never get over you. Sick and tired, i felt. But the mind & heart just ain't giving up. As if they know, you're the one for me. I am helplessly falling for you... Another night, having dreams of you. How can i ever let you go? How can i ever get to move on? I just can't give you up. Another day, without you. Found someone else But never as complete as you. I gotta get over you. Help me. Assist me. My only one, i had to let go. It's a decision made On my own will. And if you've found someone else, that's okay. I believe in fate, like i've told you. I believe GOD have found something better for you.. for me. May this time works well for you. -...through with you.- |
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Chat with a new friend..
Sunday, June 22, 20082:01 PM
So..
These few days i've been trying my best to make new friends as much as possible. Friends come and go, right? So, new friends come, old friends go.. Something like that.. I got myself a new crazy friend, Hafeez. I'd prefer to call him Miru though. The cute nick of his. heh. And oh, on the first day we met, i was "melted" by his smile. Seriously! I went.. 'oh...god...kuatkanlah imanku.' hahaha! A friend, will always remain a friend. That's what we will be. =) Then... i knew another new friend. I got to know him just yesterday. I'm gonna post some stuffs we chat about in MSN last nite. Scares me, somehow. He's like a psychic! Him: from the way i see thru your looks... U like to be independent...U dun hope for people around u...and u dun like people to noe that u have a problem...when u cry..u like to be all alone, shed tears to the pillow in the nite and dun wan anyone to see u cry...u are strong on the inside cos u noe no matter wat u'll not give up in anything.....so..am i correct to say this?? Me: hahaha. how did u guess dat right? n how do u do dat? just by seeing pictures? Him: Well...i'm not a judge anyway...hehehe....I dun noe, everytime i see people..i somehow noe more or less about them by jus seeing thru their eyes...even at the pics... strange huh? Me: reeaalllyy strange.. hahaha! Him: tell me sumthing.....u like red colour izzit??? Me: wad makes u say so? Him: well.....that colour suits ur whole profile...i mean ur life now... Me: oook... ur really freaking me out... Him: chill ok...... u love to drink ice lemon tea rite?? Me: erm.. wadz ice lemon tea gotta do wit my life, now? Him: cos ice lemon tea is a bit sour and sweet just like the way u r now....happiness comes over sad... Me: haiz.. anything else dat u know? Him: hmm.. let me see.. u love ice cream...and the most flavour ice cream u like is vanilla mix with chocolate rite...? i dun noe...maybe tis time i am wrong... Me: hahs. yea.. i kinda like dat flavour.. let me ask, diz time.. wad kinda boys, i envy? Him: well....handsome...attractive and when he talks, people will easily get attracted to him... easily get the attention by just looking thru their eyes... Me: erm... nt really true.. heh. Him: ok......tell me....wat??? Me: i prefer guys with simple personality.. tak jemu mata memandang.. wen he smiles, i'll faint. dat sorta ting.. Him: true. words doesn't comes out from the lips but from inside of the heart.....reflection is not important in a relationship but trustworthy and the feelings for each other are important... Me: indeed.. true. Him: tell me sumthin.....wat will u do, let's say u've got a boyfriend...and one day it happens that u saw ur boy going out wif another girl without ur notice...wat will u do and how will u react?? Me: calm down... walk pass them and smile.. den walk off.. =) Him: hmmm....i'm very impressed....may i noe wat is ur horoscope?? Me: im a scorpion.. Him: oh... my... Me: wad? Him: stings like a scorpion....it will leave the poison thru the vain.. it means when people leave u..no matter wat is it...they will still remember u..ur kindness and everything u do..... Crazy... right? Tell me about it. I was shocked as hell when he said this and that. So, i guess..this is me. What he said, mostly are true. Well, what do i gotta say? Life has its ups and downs. And i must say i'm having the downs at this moment. Still, life has to go on. Get over the past and look forward for the future. -..and it's okay if you have to go away..just remember the telephone works both ways.- |
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Papa Roach
Monday, June 16, 20088:05 PM
In the brightest hour of my darkest day
I realized what is wrong with me Can’t get over you Can’t get through to you It’s been a helter-skelter romance from the start Take these memories that are haunting me Of a paper man cut into shreds by his own pair of scissors She’ll never forgive him Because days come and go But my feelings for you are forever Sitting by a fire on a lonely night Hanging over from another good time With another boy Little dirty boy You should listen to this story of his life You’re my heroine in this moment I’m lonely fulfilling my darkest dreams All these drugs all these men I’m never forgiving this broken heart of mine One last kiss before I go Dry your tears it is time to let you go -Forever..- |
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150608
Sunday, June 15, 20082:46 AM
Today, i reached home around 2.15 in the morning.
Had 4Ts Graduation Dinner at Clarke Quay, 7pm earlier. After that, we planned on going to M.O.S, had some objections by the rest. Then came another plan on going to KTV Pub. Didn't believe when i asked Amin, 'Bang, are you 0k going to M.O.S? 'Coz if you're not going, i won't too. You know mama won't let me go to such places without having you around', his reply was, 'Yeah sure. I'll take the nightrider home'. Then i smiled happily. Thought i could have so much fun for once, going to a club. Unfortunately, after a long decision, Amin thought it would be better if we meet Kok Wei at City Hall and hang out with him. So, i had to come along. Had a REALLY great time with my crazy friend. Couldn't stop laughing. He just gets crazier. I missed him loads. Anyways, i had so much fun today, even though couldn't go for clubbing. heh. Would love to visit my Superhero one day. Planned that with Amin and Kok Wei. =) -St James...anyone?- |
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Better In Time
Friday, June 13, 20081:11 PM
It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to See somehow I can't forget you After all that we've been through Going coming thought I heard a knock Who's there no one Thinking that I deserve it Now I realise that I really didn't know If you didn't notice you mean everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gonna be ok Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time And even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time I couldn't turn on the TV Without something there to remind me Was it all that easy To just put aside your feelings If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh Hurt my feelings but that's the path I believe in And I know that time will heal it If you didn't notice boy you meant everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'm gonna be ok Since there's no more you and me It's time I let you go So I can be free And live my life how it should be No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you Yes I will -A promise to change.- |
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Kau ingin ku miliki..
Thursday, June 12, 20081:52 PM
Pertemuan yang tiada terduga
Kini kita saling bermesra Masa berganti hati diubati Mekarnya cinta mula dirasai Semakin ingin ku cuba luahkan Engkau masih tidak mengerti Cemburu terasa musnahlah impian Melihat engkau terus direbuti Berkali ku nyatakan ku sayangkan padamu Namun kau masih membisu Kau tak mengerti Ingin kau ku miliki Kau menghancuri hati ini Ku cuba nyatakn rasa cintaku Hati masih terus keliru Andai kau fahami isi hatiku Yang benar ingin memlikimu Usah bandingkan sejarah lama Kau tahu ku benar setia Seribu untuk bercinta lagi Takut dirimu disakiti -Kau ingin ku miliki..- |
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MJ still rocks my socks!
Saturday, June 07, 200810:05 PM
Am now watching videos of, MJ (not Mat Jais, not Mak Janda), the one and only Michael Jackson, in youtube.
How i miss having to sit very near the television and watch his LD and video tape every single day. That was what i did since aged 6. I miss going crazy for him, asking for silly things from Mum just to get closer to MJ. Each year passes by, rumors came around trying to bring him down, but heck, i don't give a damn if he's gay or whatever shit that's been said about him. He's still, and will always be my No.1 King Of Pop. And no, i don't believe thy rumors. I believe in the man himself. Even though he looks like hell now (i love the way he looks during the 80's though), he still, rocks my socks. So anyways, went out with the girls today. Planned on having a picnic at East Coast Park, but ended up in Parkway Parade. It was raining heavily when we reached PP. As our dear planner, Mastura, didn't planned the wet-weather activities, we ended up shopping. Kat bought some stuffs in Cotton On, took and bought my stuffs in Dorothy Perkins, then came Azima, then visit Mama for a while, then went to Tampines Mall to have our heavy lunch at Pizza Hut (geez guys, i told ya i ain't eating at night. damn right, i'm on a diet and still, i'm full.), then i shopped for shoes, then Mastura, Zahirah and Azima had to leave, and our last resort was, Singapore Expo. Shopped again for shoes, some make-ups for Hasni and me, Kat bought bermudas and then off we go. Guess i had fun. haha! Thanks a lot guys. Even though we were all tired, i guess we did have some fun together. Remember our next plan. I can hardly wait..~! =) -Let this be..a moment of truth.- |
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My Superhero
Friday, June 06, 20081:16 PM
Today, i'm gonna blog about my Superhero.
Can't help but to blog it now. The name's Mohd Riduan. Aged 25. Staying at Sengkang. I think Fidido and Haseni knows whom i'm talking about. The hot one. Working at St James.. Rings a bell? No? Nemind. You guys are getting old anyway. =) So, this Superhero of mine used to be someone i thought would be insensitive and arrogant. I've known him for almost a year or less. I can't really remember. First when i get to know him, he was HOT..and still is. He was such an irritator that i almost ignored him. We usually got into a fight, verbally, and ended up not talking to each other until the next day. It's strange that we could actually chat normally like nothing happened the previous day. heh. Then it happened again like every other days. Goes around like a clock. Until one day..he was not online for quite sometime. I started to miss him..like HELL. I needed someone to talk to. To argue with. Yeah, he was like my punching bag. =) I don't think he ever mind. 'Coz i know, he cared. Like how i cared for him. When i wanted a shoulder to cry on, he was there. Always brings a smile to my face. And i actually have loads to say about this favourite guy of mine, but just can't put it into words. No one would understand. And a day won't be enough. ..and no, i haven't meet him. I don't go out with hot guys. heh. I wanna let him know that, he meant alot. And that he's my one and only Superhero, the greatest i've ever had. No one could ever replace someone like you, in my heart. Hope you find your happiness soon, dear one. =) -My one and only Superhero.. Thank you.- |
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13 Apr 08 - 11 June 08
Thursday, June 05, 20084:31 PM
So, the end is near.
Working for SPF wasn't that easy. I had to stay strong and focus. I couldn't complain much 'coz i know my Supervisor's working hard enough and i know she's in depression. I know too, that my presence didn't help that much, but i guess i did help something. Anyways, i'm quitting SPF soon. So whoever wants to look for me, i'll be there 'till Wednesday, 11th of June. So, BKK trip is canceled due to him going with his family on the same month as we planned to go. And.. i told myself, there's always next year. Haha. So, yeah. Perhaps will visit KL. I heard in KLCC, the Coach bags are cheaper than it is in here. So, gonna check it out. I hope to get a job soon. Get my debts all sorted out and start saving again. I wanna get married on November. =) Ok. Perhaps this entry is such a bore. I'm sorry. -I'm wanting to get over you.- |
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