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Fantastic Four Appreciation Party

Monday, May 28, 20074:33 PM

Went to the party yesterday.. ALONE. =)
But met Mona & Gino's cousins there..
The party was great.
The emcees were funny & lame. lols.
But it was fun.
So.. to Hasni, Firdiana & Iqa.. Sorry babes.
I had sooo much fun with them.
And Has, Hakim hugged me tight! It was soo tight that i can hardly breathe.
Lols. No lah.. We've not been seeing each other for quite some time.. That was why.
And i was touched when he first saw me and he goes 'IIIRRAAAA!!!' =)
Don't get jealous Has.. He's like a dear brother to me. weee~

Anyways, there were autograph sessions and all..
Brilliant performance by G.O.D & F4 themselves. The rest of the performers were ok-ok.
Pictures and videos in my multiply website. Just go to http://shaira87.multiply.com =)

The autograph session...

Gino with his 'My Singer!! Sing me a song soon k?'..
And he wrote, 'To My Singer IRA( he was asking how to spell my name..), "it's A right at the back? A right, right??' I mean, how do u spell my name in friendster then, pare?) U can frickin sing! I wanna hear u sing soon! F4 loves ya! Gino. =)
And i love you guys too..

Hakim was like... as i said.. 'IIRRAAAA!' with his excited look.
And he wrote, 'Dearest friend IRA. I will remember u.. Thank you! Kim.'
I missed you alot, Kimmie.

Abg Ewan went.. 'hmmm.. Irraa..'..
And he wrote, 'IRA, u rock!(i'm a rock??!!) Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Love you! e1.'
Love you too, abg. =)

Abg Bom Bom was the most "Selenger" one. With his "selamba" look, he looked at me and wrote, 'I.R.A Hey babe! Thank you for your lovely support! BomBom. '
Then i said, 'Wah abg! I can't believe you still remember my name!'
Then he said, 'Biasa uh..!' Still with the bacin look on his face. heh.
Thank you, abg bacin! =)

Now.. The most meaningful autograph from my world's best twin-brother..
He looked at me, smiled sweetly and said, 'Thank you, Ira. Thank you so much.'
And he wrote.. 'My Fav Lil Sister!! I Love you! Thx 4 everything. Love, Amin.'
Many of you may think it's just some simple words. But to me, it meant ALOT. And i mean ALOT. I can hardly hear him say he loves me, or call me adek. And i almost thought he loves me no more, coz of some personal stuffs. I was almost in tears when i read that. I love you too, bro. And you know it.

Above all, the party was fantastic! =)

-Ain't gonna think about LOVE no more..-

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I hate to feel what i feel now..

Monday, May 21, 20078:29 PM

Sick!
Sick!
Sick!

Went to visit the doctor this noon and had to skip the last class. Was feeling damn giddy.
It took a whole damn 2 hours to meet the doctor and get the medicines.
Feeling more sick than ever.
Anyways, while i was on my way to the bus stop near my school, i saw Syad. I was listening to my iPod and was looking for some songs. I believe, Syad saw me. I looked up, i wanted to say hi when he just walked off. I felt, as if, he hates me now. Well, what can i do? People do misjudge others. So, what can i say?

Syad, i didn't pray for things like these to happen. I've moved on. It's not easy. Never was. But i never turned back, right? I'm sorry for everything. I know you hate me now. I just want us to be like other normal friends. I don't wanna lie to myself and i don't wanna lie to you. I want to be strong. I have to. I know i can and i know you can too. You've got the charm. Go for someone better instead of stupid, ugly me. I'm not worthy of you. You really do deserve someone better.
There was once i dreamt of Parabenz playing my favourite song, Too Close For Comfort by McFly, which reminds me of what i did to you. And the guilt is always there. But i can't turn back the time. I wish i could. Too often i think about what i did to you till i dream of you. Trust me, it hurts to hurt you. Thank you for the wonderful memories, though. It can never be erased.
And i do miss those times we had.

To my dearest Abg Bom Bom,

Panjang umurnya,
Panjang umurnya,
Panjang umurnya serta mulia..
Serta muuliiaa.. Serta muuliiaa..

Happy Advanced Birthday, bro. Wishing you all the best in your future endeavours.
Love you, man.

-Some things are better left unsaid..-

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I'm sick..!

Sunday, May 20, 20075:44 PM

Hey all.
After school on Friday, went to watch soccer in school.
Inter-Department match.
Saw dearest Chicken (lols), Chicken's friend (Malek), Luqman, Faiz, Adi etc.
While watching Faiz's team doing their best to win, i saw... Suki-Muki-Puki, name was given by Hasni herself, then i quickly called Has and told her about who i saw. Was fun! We kept laughing. heh.
Adi's team lost.. lols. It was around 5+ when we moved off and went home.
Faiz was like, '..rabak seh ira.. Ira alek je team Faiz kalah!..'. Funny lah you, Faiz. It was a joke, by the way. Hehe.

Anyways, when i got home that day, i felt weak.. tired.. My head hurts.
I quickly changed, went online for a while and then i had my rest.
I thought i was gonna wake up around 11, the most, but in the end, i woke up around 8+ the next morning. hee..
Still, my head hurts. Woke up and found myself having running nose. Darn!
Till today, i'm down with flu and bad headaches. So, i decide to go visit the doctor tomorrow if i'm still not well.
While resting just now, i received a message from dear saying he's having high fever. And if he's not well by tonight, his mum will send him to TTSH. That bad, huh? And i'm dead worried about him now. Hope he gets better by tonight. Or..
By hook or by crook, i'm visiting you tomorrow noon.

Dearie, please take good care of yourself. I'm sick, and you're sick. Siape nak jaga siape nanti?
Get well soon k, hunny bunny? Love u loads. =)

p/s: Faiz, u were great man last Fri. 2 goals by you! What the...! Baik uh keeper.. Wa caya sama lu! Go Faiz Go! lols.

-You're still the one..-

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Loving you was a mistake..

Thursday, May 17, 20076:13 PM

You gave me light when i'm down.
You were there through my darkest days.
You took away the pain and thought me how to love.
And now, you pushed me away and tore me apart.
You took everything, leaving me with nothing..

Heart break..
It bled.
It puzzles me why i still miss you after you fled..
Still, my heart calls out your name..
Should've known, you were fake..
and that loving you was a mistake.

I never thought it'll be this way..
I never meant a thing did i?
You don't get it do you?
Do you realise how much i cared?
Now my nightmares has come true..
Seeing that I don't even mean a thing to you..

Hush now..
Stop your lies
So many questions left unanswered..
But it wasn't to be..
I gotta let it go..

I'm moving on..
Creating a new chapter..
You're history,
No longer in my life.

No more love..
No more heart break..
No more tears..
No more..
YOU..

Credits to Matrep for helping me with this piece. I'm loving it. hee..

I've no idea why i'm feeling kinda weak these few days..
All i wanted to do is sleep..
Is that a sign..?
Anyways, Firdiana, i haven't got any idea what to write about the 10 weird things of myself..
When i've got an idea, i'll write them down and show it to you ok? =)

Mona, please don't be sad..
We've been through the same situation and for what i know, men who hurt us, aren't worth our tears. Stay strong, alright babe?
We'll put ourselves together and rule all men ok? lols.

-Am i worthy of you? Or even better, are you worthy of me..?-

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Happy Belated Mothers Day!

Monday, May 14, 20078:08 PM

Ok. I know it's kinda late to wish all the Mamas.. But it ain't too late, right?
I hate blogger nowadays.
It's ruining my mood to blog. Urgh. Whatever.

Anyways, had fun on Saturday..
Mama called me up saying she wants to celebrate mum's day at pizza hut.
So, the siblings with Raziz(cousin) went to fetch granny at our aunt's place then we met mama at TM Pizza Hut.
Didn't know this cuzzie of mine, with the brother, will be joining us.. (buat menyemak jek!)
Lucky i brought my cammy.. Take a look at the pics we took.. Below

We had a long talk over there.. And the restaurant, was like a coffee shop.
Throughout the whole meal, we laughed our ass out. This cuzzie of mine la. Keep eye-ing on cute girls. Then, when disturbed, he turned to be a shy boy. Whatever la kan jis? hehe..
It was the craziest moment i've ever had la.. I hope mama did enjoy herself throughout the dinner and all..
Btw, i'm getting her a pair of earrings.. heh.
Don't know what else to buy lah..

-I'm in love.. So in love with you.-

Cuzzies, mama & granny

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Forever yours i'll be..

Friday, May 11, 20077:39 PM

If I told you once,
I told you twice,
You can see it in my eyes.

I'm all cried out,
With nothing to say.
You're everything I wanted to be.

If you could only see,
Your heart belongs to me.
I love you so much,
I'm yearning for your touch.

Come and set me free,
Forever yours I'll be,
Baby won't you come and take this pain away.

I need you,
And you need me.
This is so plain to see,
And I will never let you go and,
I will always love you so.
I will...

I'm so alone,
I'm so lonely..

Why don't you pick up the phone,
And dial up my number,
And call me a baby,
I'm waiting on you.

Went out in the evening yesterday to meet Kak Ida & the bitch himself..
We had our dinner at Burger King..
And this bitch, how popular anyone could be, they'll surely have some bad habits, right?
Like this twin of mine, urgh. I better not say.
It's so gross.But anyways, that was nothing..
For the past 8 years, i've seen more.. i've seen the worst. =)

Back to the story, we spent our time together over there, chit-chatting..
I miss those times when we were so close..
We almost go everywhere together.. esp Amin.
Ever since he joined DanceFloor, i truly missed going out with him.
And i truly miss having a close talk with him..
Meeting him in school everyday, we don't really have the comfortable place to talk about things..
And it's like we rarely spend some time together.
But whatever, you know..
I don't wanna get too emotional..
He's the best, afterall..
And we love each other.. =)

I'm afraid of the unpredictable..

-You're my only hope, and i pray to be only yours..-

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Happy Birthday, Sweetie Pie..

Wednesday, May 09, 20078:32 PM

What's happening to blogger these days? It's making me sick..
Anyways..

To my dearest Honey Bee..

Happy Birthday to you..
Happy Birthday to you..
Happy Birthday to Fakhrin..
Happy Birthday to you..

*clap hands*

Sedar tak sedar, you dah tua, yang.. lols.

You turn 21, today..
I've always told you to stay strong in overcoming obstacles in life..
Life has its ups and downs..
But when you're with me, i feel as if this world belongs to us..
And i treasure each and every moment together..
Hopefully, you'll get better and stronger..
I love you, and you're the only one i need..

-.. addicted to you, baby..-

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Truly, Madly, Deeply...

Thursday, May 03, 20077:49 PM

Hello!
Well, well, well..
I think i've got lots to blog about..
It's just that i'm pretty lazy to type it all out.. heh.

Anyways, firstly, i wanna talk about Fantastic Four.
Even though they didn't win, they sure made us proud, don't you agree?
Honestly, i thought they won't make it to Top 3! 'Coz i gotta admit, Melvin & Sharon was good..
But still, i hoped for more..
'Coz i know Amin will treat me big, if they win the $50,000.. lols.
So, bro.. No more stress, no more late-night practices, no more skipping lessons..
It's FINALLY over! Thank god.. lols.
But hey, i'm still waiting for my pizza, babe. haha!

Enough said about F4 already..
I'm feeling kinda sad plus happy, actually..
My bestie's getting engaged in about 2 months..
Hey big guy, i hope this one will last till eternity.
You've been through hell and take a look at you now..
So happy.. So in love.. And i'm soo jealous. lols.
Fadli, when you first broke the news, i was shocked.. Truly shocked.
I didn't know it would be that fast. And somehow, i feel a loss..
I don't know why.. I feel like i'm losing the best buddy i've had..
But heh, nevermind that.. I'm soo happy for you now..
And oh, please don't invite me on ur engagement day. I'm not into it..
Invite me when you're getting married. How about that? hehe..
All the best, big guy. You'll learn new things once you're engaged..
Remember, patience is a virtue.. Don't give up easily..
I'll always be here for you.. =)

All right.
I'm done with my bestest buddies.
Now, i'm moving on to... Fakhrin.
He sms-ed me saying that he's been transferred out of SOC.
He's got this sickness (which he don't wanna tell) and because of that, he needs to recover soon..
He's got till July to get back to SOC. Oh dear, please please get well soon..
I need you to stay strong.. 'Coz you're where i rely on..
And i'm here for you.. Will always be..
No matter how many obstacles may bring, i believe in you.. And i believe in us.
So please get well soon.. I wanna meet you.. Celebrate the happiest moments we had..
I love you, babe. And nothing's gonna change that.

-All i want is you..-

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