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If only you knew...
Saturday, June 30, 200710:57 PM
Sitting here alone..
Drowned in my own feelings.. Reflecting on what my life has been all about.. Complicating yet meaningful.. I can't seem to understand how and what i feel deep inside, but i know i'm feeling down.. I feel.. Angry. Sad. Hatred to someone i love most.. I don't know why.. It's a total mixture of what i feel right now.. Tears.. Please don't fall.. `Cos each and every time you do, my heart bleeds.. Eyes.. Please don't get easily attracted to the attractive smile.. `Cos the heart will fall for it easily.. Heart.. Please stay strong.. There's nothing else i can hope for but for you to be strong in overcoming all circumstances.. And to you.. I wish you'd open up to me.. Let me be the one to comfort you.. Let me be there for you.. Let me be the only one.. If only you knew.. How much i cared.. If only you knew.. How much i need you.. If only you knew.. How much i miss your smile & laughter.. If only you knew.. How much it hurts to see you being someone different.. If only you knew.. How much.. I Love You. -You've always been the one..- |
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Wednesday, June 27, 20072:41 PM
Hasni said, it's been 10 days i haven't been blogging..
So here i am to blog about my working life. Well.. Work is fine.. Even though there are loads of mats and minahs around, almost everyone around me are friendly.. What i like most about working is, i made new friends almost everyday.. New-comers keep coming in. And i just met an old friend the other day. He's cuter now. lols. And of course, i met this group of guys.. They're awfully awesome. Just can't be separated from them.. They're like my new BFF now. hehs. Guys, you rawk my world! Oh! Not to forget.. There's this matrep. Didn't know he was one. I could only see him from far.. And i thought he's kinda cute.. I told one of my BFF about it.. And he told me, he's got tattoo and stuff. Then i said, "Oh? Forget it then. hehs.' While i've nothing to do at work, i like to turn around and look for familiar faces when suddenly i saw someone waved at me.. It was like a small wave, like a shy one. I ignored it. It was from that matrep. 'Cos honestly, i wasn't sure if he WAS waving at me.. The next time i turned around, he waved again.. This time, a BIG wave. lols. Then i just smiled at him.. and he smiled back. That was the first time a matrep waved at me. lols. Since then, we talked. Nothing but work and stuff. =) Thanks to Azlan for the recommendation. Without you, i wouldn't have known these guys.. -Age is just a number. We will all die one day anyway.- |
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Happy Birthday Abangku!
Sunday, June 17, 200712:02 PM
Happy 22nd Birthday, Abg Shai!!
Yippeee!! We're gonna celebrate his birthday outside.. Can't wait! wee~ I wonder how's my birthday gonna be.. Will there be a celebration? Surprises? hee.. Well, gotta wait for another 5 months to know.. Time, please pass by fast. =) Pics posted in http://shaira87.multiply.com Anyways, a week ago.. or maybe two, i made a new friend. =) Known him from friendster.. One great, funny guy.. Oh, handsome and cute too.. kembang abg burger kita nanti Last Thursday, we met. I had to pick him up at bedok.. Such a darling, aren't you, bucokku? Next time, you pick me up at Sengkang k? =) Anyways, back to the story.. We were supposed to watch Ocean's 13 at Vivo. I had a pair of coupons from donating blood at school the other time. But unfortunately, we had to cancel our plan as the next show is at 9+... I'm sorry bucok. Didn't know it'll be that packed. But we had fun walking around, didn't we..? hee. And the fun part, starts at the Pet Shop. We were looking around.. Watching dogs.. lols. He told me, 'I dare u to touch the glass.. Go on..' I wanted to, really.. But i didn't.. hehe.. While i left him admiring the dogs, i moved to the other side.. When i looked at him, he was really concentrating on the dogs.. And so.. i thought of disturbing him.. heheh. I quietly walked up to him and gave him a BOO!. He jumped a little with a shock look on his face. I totally laughed on him. Really, that was funny.. Sorry laling bucokku.. I couldn't help it.. But you look cute when i disturbed you. hee.. To Fantastic Four fans.. By now, you guys should know that they won the KL competition last last Saturday. I know it's kinda late.. I was lazy to blog it out. hehs. So, congrats to my brothers. You guys rawk to the core! Love you guys. =) And Amin, don't fall while you spin around.. =) -...and so, i stray from love..- |
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Yipeee Yipeee Yay Yay!
Thursday, June 14, 200712:08 PM
Dearest Amin got home on Monday morning..
Last Saturday night, he sms-ed me and said that they won. Unbelievable, huh? Well, that's them. They are unbelievable. Truly awesome. Wish i was there. Urgh! Nvm. Anyways, congrats guys. You made us proud. Love ya'll to bits. Dear Parabenz, I'm sorry i couldn't make it to Musique Workz tomorrow. I've something on. I'm so sorry about that. But i know you guys will do your very best to make it a one memorable performance. I wish ya'll the very best. People, holidays starts very soon. And i'm having it earlier. hee. Seriously, i'm in a holiday mood already. Didn't come for today's lesson. Tomorrow? I'm soo not sure. hehs. I can't wait to watch Fantastic Four and Transformers. Also, Harry Potter's something-something. Forgotten the title of the movie. Abg should know better. hee. Should watch that with abg. Right, Amin? Dah lama kita tak date, bang. lols. And above all this, i think i should look for a part-time job. =) -Love? What does it really mean..?- |
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I'm missing him..
Thursday, June 07, 20077:39 PM
Hello.
As you can see above, i'm missing someone. My dearest twin. He's off to KL with the rest of the Fantastic Four members for a competition. He'll be staying there for about 4 days. I'm supposed to follow them. But Amin said, 'Don't Ira. It's not worth it. We've been sponsored by Mediacorp. That's why we're not spending alot. But you, you're gonna spend alot there. So, don't go. Next time ok?' Hmm. Like a good sister who listens to a big brother's advice, i just nod and gave him a sad look. I'm gonna miss my brother, ok? Please take care, bro. Come home and bring back the glory. =) Love you guys. And.. Please do get me some souvenirs. hee.. I'll love you more. =) -I love you like i did before..- |
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What The....!
Tuesday, June 05, 20078:27 PM
I've got problems with my broadband connection.
Sometimes can't get to surf the net.. Sometimes can't get into MSN.. And sometimes.. I can't even get connected! Singnet technicians, please do your job properly. It's pissing me off. Anywyas, my niece came last Sunday and is staying with me till tomorrow, i guess. She's been helping me to cheer myself up.. I'm stressed out, actually. Loads to think about. Lucky me, my niece came to the rescue.. Bt, not for long... On sunday, i met her, my cousin and my brother at mum's working place. We went for shopping and all.. When me and mum went to the cashier to cash our stuffs, dear niece was right behind me.. And when i turned, i couldn't move and then... i sprained my ankle.. not only that.. i had a great fall.. dont laugh! i dropped on my left knee first. And then.. BOOM! hee.. I didn't really felt the pain till i got home.. I got a bruise on my left knee.. A big bruise.. The next day, i woke up limping.. All thanks to Qyairunna Adeela. Thank you so much, dear niece. I love you. URGH! Ok. What the heck. I'm still limping though. hehs. Amin too. lols. Then people who know us, will say, 'Ape ni adik bradik jalan tempang-tempang..?' And then i'll just smile while Amin go sayin that he's limping. Like duh! We ARE limping. Every body knows that. lols. Abang, Abang.. So.. Day's been fine.. Except for Internet Security lesson. It suck. The teacher suck too.. Hate him forever. Anyways, on Saturday night, i was happily chatting.. Slept really late this time. hehs. Was browsing friendster and all when suddenly... Someone pm-ed me in MSN. He said, 'hi.. who are you?' Before i opened the window, i was like.. 'Siapa sia ni..' And when i opened it, i looked at the addy.. A VERY VERY familiar addy.. I added him years ago.. Just waiting for him to get online.. Till that night. I was like.. 'RIIIZZAALLL!!! OMG! Is that really you...???' And then said, 'yeah.. siapa ni...?' and.... etc.. Well, this Rizal, is a dear friend of mine.. Back in secondary school when i first knew him, we always fight. I don't know what we fought about but... we did. hehs. He told me it was some silly and funny fight, he'll never ever forget. How did we lose contact? It's my fault. I hurt him. We liked each other. Really liked each other.. And i liked him too much that i had to hurt him.. I didn't have any intention to hurt him though.. But.. Fate brought us back together. And i'm really really glad to have met him again.. Dear Rizal, I won't hurt you this time.. I'll try my very very best.. And no, i won't let you go no matter what happens.. I agree i was stupid and i deserve what i've got when you weren't around.. I lost my chances to have u as my special someone.. That's enough for some kind of a punishment.. It's great having you in my life again.. And i'm sooo thankful for that. What more could i ask for? I can't bear to lose u again.. And i'll never ever let that happen.. -Their happiness comes first before mine..- |
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Shopping Day!
Friday, June 01, 20076:16 PM
Hey.
Hello. Hi. I didn't go to school again today. I had a bad headache and i mean BAD headache, when i woke up. So, i quickly sms-ed Has and said i couldn't make it to school today. Woke up later at around 10 and watched Ghost Rider with mama and the rest. The movie's awesome. I wonder why most people said it's boring. Well anyways, in the afternoon, Iqa asked me out. FOR THE FIRST TIME! lols. What the heck. heh. She wanted to get a bag and so was i. So, we went to Far East, i bought a simple sling bag for school, a nice, cheap watch and 1 A7X's and 1 Alexisonfire's t-shirts. All of it costs me about $60 . I find it cheap and worth it. heh. I haven't been shopping for a while. So i guess, Dear God really wanted me to have a real break this time. Thank you, God. I feel good. =) And now, i'm waiting to go for a movie with Faiz. Wei, legong! Bila mau kuar?? I might be going out tomorrow to watch some band performances. One at PS and another at Cineleisure. Not sure which to go and with whom. So, i'm still thinking of whether to go or.. not. To Al Hafiz, Congratulations on winning the recent competition which was held at Tampines. I still hope to meet this Firdaus, friend of yours. hee. Carve This Heart rawks and may god bless the band. I'm out! -I'm blessed with what i have...- |
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