I hate to feel what i feel now..
Monday, May 21, 20078:29 PM
Sick!Sick!Sick!Went to visit the doctor this noon and had to skip the last class. Was feeling damn giddy.It took a whole damn 2 hours to meet the doctor and get the medicines.Feeling more sick than ever.Anyways, while i was on my way to the bus stop near my school, i saw Syad. I was listening to my iPod and was looking for some songs. I believe, Syad saw me. I looked up, i wanted to say hi when he just walked off. I felt, as if, he hates me now. Well, what can i do? People do misjudge others. So, what can i say? Syad, i didn't pray for things like these to happen. I've moved on. It's not easy. Never was. But i never turned back, right? I'm sorry for everything. I know you hate me now. I just want us to be like other normal friends. I don't wanna lie to myself and i don't wanna lie to you. I want to be strong. I have to. I know i can and i know you can too. You've got the charm. Go for someone better instead of stupid, ugly me. I'm not worthy of you. You really do deserve someone better. There was once i dreamt of Parabenz playing my favourite song, Too Close For Comfort by McFly, which reminds me of what i did to you. And the guilt is always there. But i can't turn back the time. I wish i could. Too often i think about what i did to you till i dream of you. Trust me, it hurts to hurt you. Thank you for the wonderful memories, though. It can never be erased.And i do miss those times we had.To my dearest Abg Bom Bom,Panjang umurnya,Panjang umurnya,Panjang umurnya serta mulia..Serta muuliiaa.. Serta muuliiaa..Happy Advanced Birthday, bro. Wishing you all the best in your future endeavours. Love you, man. -Some things are better left unsaid..-
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