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love takes time..
Sunday, August 27, 20063:16 PM
I had it all
But I let it slip away Couldn't see I treated you wrong Now I wander around Feeling down and cold Trying to believe that you're gone To heal when you're hurting so much Couldn't see that I was blind To let you go I can't escape the pain inside 'Cause love takes time I don't wanna be here alone Losing my mind From this hollow in my heart Suddenly I'm so incomplete God, I'm needing you now Tell me how to stop the rain Tears are falling down endlessly You might say that it's over You might say that you don't care You might say you don't miss me You don't need me But I know that you do and I feel that you do -Y am i feeling this way?- |
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Love?
Saturday, August 26, 20063:55 PM
Tears falls as he cheated on me over & over again..
Indeed, promises are meant to be broken.. My love was sincere, that was all i know.. But did he at least lay some sympathy? It's left undone.. Betrayed, i searched for some warmth in my soul.. Knowing that i couldn't get over it.. Life, Love.. What do i got to say? Sucks? It's been a wonderful life when i was with him.. When everything went berserk, there's just nothing i could do but to let him go.. It's just the way how humans live with it.. For him, he's just living life to the fullest.. How? By breaking me into pieces.. But still, memories will be kept deep inside my heart.. Still mending the broken pieces, since you left.. -After the sweet, comes the bitter- |
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when a girl...
Wednesday, August 23, 20064:02 PM
When a girl is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.. When a girl is not arguing, She is thinking deeply.. When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions, She is wondering how long you will be around.. When a girl answers 'i'm fine' after a few seconds, She is not at all fine.. When a girl stares at you, She is wondering why you are lying.. When a girl lays on your chest, She is wishing for you to be hers forever.. When a girl calls you everyday, She is seeking for your attention.. When a girl sms's you everyday, She wants you to reply at least once.. When a girl says 'I Love You', She means it.. When a girl says she can't live without you, She has made up her mind that you are her future.. When a girl says 'i miss you', No one in this world can miss you more than her... -Hoping that you would understand me, eventually- |
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What is Love?
Monday, August 21, 200610:38 AM
What's Love?
The Answer... Someone who makes you feel Good about living, Who brings out the you Who is joyful and giving Something that gives you A chance to be strong, Or Trust in another to help you along Somewhere that you feel like You've been forever A place where you're growing And learning together -From Ryhan, again.. Thanks, dear friend- |
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Typical Mat Reps Dancing to Dangdut Songs..
Saturday, August 19, 200611:37 PM
I just got back from going out with my aunt watching my grandfather's karaoke competition.. I didn't know there would be a Dangdut Night..
At first, i asked myself, 'what am i doin' here?'.. Lots of Mak Ciks' & Pak Ciks'.. Some Mats' & Minahs' around... Geez! I thought i wasn't gonna breathe for a while.. When the Dangdut Night begins... First person i see was, a Mat Rep dancing with a Mak Cik(who tries to look like Inul Darastita).. I saw him dancing as if he was dancing to techno songs.. When later, i saw him shaking.. N shaking... N shaking.. I was like, 'Oh My Gawd!'.. I asked my aunt, 'Now, what is that..?', her reply was something like,'Oh! That's the Mat Reps' Dangdut's style..'.. And i laughed out loud.. As my eyes wandered around, i saw this young couple dancing so.. i should say lovey dovey-ly to Shida & Amelina's Secangkir Madu Merah.. They kept on dancing till one slow song.. Damn, i was jealous for a moment.. To think that i didn't have someone to dance with.. I was lonely, indeed.. My aunts were dancing together and left me alone.. I was asked to join them, but that would be a big NO.. I ain't gonna shake my butt to a Dangdut! So, i just sat there and watched the loving couple dance.. Through their body movements, i can see that they weren't a first-timer.. They were really romantic, i must say.. Some kids with Mat & Minah Reps' from the second floor, went down to dance.. So typical of them.. They weren't that bad though.. Especially the Dangdut Mat Rep.. Well, i think i had fun though watching them dance.. -Disorganized- |
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Missing my PUTERA..
Wednesday, August 16, 20068:42 AM
Known this "Putera" of mine since i was in Sec 3, i think.. He was in ITE..
He's a loverboy.. Sweet, caring.. He LUuUrVes to sing.. Plays his guitar.. And lots more.. Saw his pic from Anakmelayu.com, at first.. Didn't know that we'll meet in IRC.. I was so happy.. But it didn't last long.. We had a "thing" for a while.. We liked each other, i believe.. We lost contact for the whole year after a lil bit of misunderstanding.. Then one day, on the month of ramadhan 04(if i'm not mistaken), a friend of my mum called.. Saying, someone wanted to talk to me for a long time.. When i heard his voice, i straight away guessed who he was.. I was friggin' happy.. Didn't know what to say.. We talked for a while.. Exchanging our numbers and stuff.. We talked about things like, 'i wish we'd stay near and sit somewhere where we could have a long chat...' Damn, i miss those days.. *Sigh* He was so sweet.. Until... We planned to meet a week later.. Break-fast together with my mum n her friend at Tampines Mall's Pizza Hut.. We were speechless for a moment.. I thought i had the happiest day of my life, but i was wrong.. After that day, no more calls or sms-es from him.. I thought, maybe i put too much pressure on him.. Or maybe, i was putting high hopes on him.. Could be my fault too.. So, i did asked for forgiveness a few days later.. But still, things weren't that good as i thought it would be.. He was still the same.. Ignoring my messages..etc So, i left him alone for a while.. The next year, we talked.. But i can't exactly remember why our friendship was still shaky.. I think, it could be the time when i found out he lied about something.. I was deeply hurt.. But what could i do..? I felt a bit of satisfaction after letting go what i felt, at him.. But still, i love him.. I missed him so.. But would he care? Nah.. Life has to go on.. I kept playing the song he sang, which he gave to me once.. Cried and cried but it was useless.. I did what made me happy.. Go out, sing, read.. It took time, though.. But eventually, i made it(alhamdulillah).. I forgave him(i really did), and tried to forget the past(which was hard).. We're still friends, now.. But.. I'm not sure what i'm feeling now is right.. The songs he wrote, the songs he sang, reminds me of the past.. Of the good times, of course.. I missed him, alot.. But, besides that, there's a strong feeling of... I don't know what.. It can't be love.. Surely, it can't be.. I'm afraid.. I don't want those feelings to ruin our friendship again.. No, i can't bear to lose him again.. I don't know what to do, for now.. -Redha kepada ketentuan-Nya- |
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An idiot made this incident happen..
Monday, August 07, 20068:11 AM
Last friday, Hasni, Amin & me went for lunch at some food stall in Century Sq..
As my food's too spicy, i asked Amin to help me get a piece of tissue paper in my bag.. Dat silly biatch accidentally got his dessert's ice on our bags n got a 'mak cik' screamed a lil as she was shocked.. Our bags were wet n we'd have to carry it like shopping bags.. Mine n Hasni's look fine carrying our bags like dat but not Amin's.. His is a sling bag.. Dat horrendous bag of his.. He never listened to my advice, getting something new n 'vogue', as he calls it.. But wad da heck.. I'm juz so frustrated at dat time.. heEhz! -I Miss Him, I Miss Him, I Miss Him!- |
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