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sheyrasidik
read me if you can.
about the girl-next-next-door.
who is she?
Nursyahirah A.S
hits 26 years of age when November 2013 comes.
loves to read, sing, gigging, jamming and hangouts.
would love to travel around the world.
passionate about music.
friends and families mean everything to her.
..last but not the very least, i'm Married.. to my job. (:

affiliates
the people around her.
DylaAhmad AzuraLisha NanamiLyana Dee KakWani AbdulHakimHj
speak
silence is my sound..NOT!

archives
her past anthologies.
April 2005 April 2005
May 2005 May 2005
June 2005 June 2005
July 2005 July 2005
August 2005 August 2005
September 2005 September 2005
October 2005 October 2005
November 2005 November 2005
December 2005 December 2005
June 2006 June 2006
July 2006 July 2006
August 2006 August 2006
September 2006 September 2006
October 2006 October 2006
November 2006 November 2006
December 2006 December 2006
January 2007 January 2007
February 2007 February 2007
April 2007 April 2007
May 2007 May 2007
June 2007 June 2007
July 2007 July 2007
August 2007 August 2007
September 2007 September 2007
October 2007 October 2007
November 2007 November 2007
December 2007 December 2007
January 2008 January 2008
February 2008 February 2008
March 2008 March 2008
April 2008 April 2008
May 2008 May 2008
June 2008 June 2008
July 2008 July 2008
August 2008 August 2008
September 2008 September 2008
October 2008 October 2008
November 2008 November 2008
December 2008 December 2008
January 2009 January 2009
February 2009 February 2009
March 2009 March 2009
April 2009 April 2009
May 2009 May 2009
June 2009 June 2009
July 2009 July 2009
August 2009 August 2009
September 2009 September 2009
October 2009 October 2009
November 2009 November 2009
December 2009 December 2009
January 2010 January 2010
March 2010 March 2010
April 2010 April 2010
May 2010 May 2010
June 2010 June 2010
August 2011 August 2011
September 2011 September 2011
June 2013 June 2013
July 2013 July 2013
August 2013 August 2013
September 2013 September 2013
October 2013 October 2013
credits
clap my hands for you.
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Missing my PUTERA..
Wednesday, August 16, 20068:42 AM
Known this "Putera" of mine since i was in Sec 3, i think.. He was in ITE..
He's a loverboy.. Sweet, caring.. He LUuUrVes to sing.. Plays his guitar.. And lots more..
Saw his pic from Anakmelayu.com, at first.. Didn't know that we'll meet in IRC..
I was so happy.. But it didn't last long..
We had a "thing" for a while.. We liked each other, i believe..
We lost contact for the whole year after a lil bit of misunderstanding..

Then one day, on the month of ramadhan 04(if i'm not mistaken), a friend of my mum called.. Saying, someone wanted to talk to me for a long time.. When i heard his voice, i straight away guessed who he was.. I was friggin' happy.. Didn't know what to say..
We talked for a while.. Exchanging our numbers and stuff.. We talked about things like, 'i wish we'd stay near and sit somewhere where we could have a long chat...'
Damn, i miss those days.. *Sigh* He was so sweet.. Until...

We planned to meet a week later.. Break-fast together with my mum n her friend at Tampines Mall's Pizza Hut.. We were speechless for a moment..
I thought i had the happiest day of my life, but i was wrong.. After that day, no more calls or sms-es from him.. I thought, maybe i put too much pressure on him.. Or maybe, i was putting high hopes on him.. Could be my fault too.. So, i did asked for forgiveness a few days later.. But still, things weren't that good as i thought it would be.. He was still the same.. Ignoring my messages..etc

So, i left him alone for a while.. The next year, we talked.. But i can't exactly remember why our friendship was still shaky.. I think, it could be the time when i found out he lied about something.. I was deeply hurt.. But what could i do..?
I felt a bit of satisfaction after letting go what i felt, at him.. But still, i love him.. I missed him so.. But would he care? Nah..

Life has to go on.. I kept playing the song he sang, which he gave to me once.. Cried and cried but it was useless..
I did what made me happy.. Go out, sing, read.. It took time, though.. But eventually, i made it(alhamdulillah).. I forgave him(i really did), and tried to forget the past(which was hard).. We're still friends, now.. But..

I'm not sure what i'm feeling now is right.. The songs he wrote, the songs he sang, reminds me of the past.. Of the good times, of course.. I missed him, alot..
But, besides that, there's a strong feeling of... I don't know what.. It can't be love.. Surely, it can't be.. I'm afraid.. I don't want those feelings to ruin our friendship again.. No, i can't bear to lose him again.. I don't know what to do, for now..

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