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Monday, June 13, 20052:26 PM
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Waga Soccer Club are leaving for KL tommorrow morning.. I decided not to go at da last minute.. I didnt feel as if im in need.. I'll suffer there instead of having fun.. I dont know why.. Life has been sooo cruel towards me.. What have i ever done wrong to you guys..? Tell me.. Confront me.. I dont mind.. As long as u guys talk things out.. I cant hold it no longer.. Im tired.. Im weak.. I cant force.. Neither can i fight back.. Im too weak.. Im giving up in life.. I dont know when.. But i'll wait for da time.. Dont waste ur tears for me when im gone.. I'll rest in peace.. *Insyallah* Just pray..
Dear Joe.. Im missing you badly.. No one will ever know.. How much u mean to me.. Even though ur not here to be with me.. Trust me when i say, every breath i breathe.. Every single day i woke up.. I live for you.. Only you.. If not for you, i would have die.. Die of hatred n disguist by others who really hated me all this while.. I know where im placed in ur heart.. I know.. Im not first.. I may not be ur last.. But, i'll alwayz love you.. I dont care bout what others say now.. Its my life.. I do what i wanna do.. I think what i wanna think.. Thx to the betrayers, im alive.. With my eyes wide open, i can now see da evil inside them.. Joe, no matter what it takes.. Im still here for you..
Thank God, my pak cik n kak ika are coming down.. At least i can take things off my mind for a while.. I need someone to console and talk to me..
-Da fear is no longer within me-
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